Tonight, I'm broken into million pieces. So much pain that I almost wanted to detach myself from reality. Intense thought stopping immediately transformed itself to uncontrollable emotions. Now I can't even control my tears from falling down. I always think of how you are and it bothers to see you like that.
Yes, I'm not taking your silence against you. What do you want me to do? I can't spell it out. Don't fool me and say that you're okay even if you're not. If you don't want to be heard then fine, I won't ever ask again. I'm not even invading your private space. You need not to announce that you'll open up to make me feel better.
I'm not asking for it anymore. I act uninterested when in fact I really care kills me. I cope differently with you. I take things immaturely as you always say, and you take things maturely by being bitch to people around you.This is how I cope up so don't tell me what to do. I tried talking to you and what did you gave me?
Maybe being dead silent is not stranger than understanding you more. Less talk, less mistake right? I honestly don't know what to do, surely I can compromise for you. I miss the moment where everything between us seems to be perfect. Live in our own paradise of happiness, where it is only you and me exist.
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